My preference is Negativity

I accepted the darkness in myself many years ago. I have always been conscious of the fact that I identify with shadows. I lured the creature to my dreams with a hunter’s eye toward conquest. I intentionally depolarized and waffled between polarities, and called outward to any who would respond. The shadow creature answered my call, as I had hoped, sensing my energy was unstable and weak. However, its threat and attempt to dominate me had the effect of pushing me more deeply into negative polarity than I had ever been. I felt myself become electric power and pure will, and consumed him with hunger and wicked glee. As I consumed the creature I myself became what might be described as an etheric dragon. Consuming the creature was the act of a victor consuming the residual bodily energies of a foe.I have experienced both polarities and find my preference is negativity. All beings are capable of either polarity, however, I believe most are natively attuned to one or the other. I can experience the positive energies, but have no desire to walk the positive path. My native distortions call towards negativity and always have. Either path may lead to the joy one feels upon attaining intelligent energy. Desires determine how the energy is used and how one is to be of service. I have no desires to aid others, so I tend towards passivity when I attempt the STO orientation, even though I can experience the creation with immense empathy and comprehend other selves as unity. The passivity makes it difficult to summon the desire even to move. However, in negative polarity I am able to dynamically experience intelligent energy, as there is no limit to my desire for self-aggrandizement. -Zaxon

Interdependence or Dominance

I prefer independence and freedom. My most basic desire is to be alone with the Creator, without distraction. The relative frailty of these corporal bodies requires humanity to live in what you call “society” – I find this to be an unfortunate and unpleasant condition. I prefer a libertarian social structure, where entities loosely associate where they have a mutual cause or interest, but otherwise take responsibility for their own lives. I believe societal structures to make the individual dumb, weak, and complacent. Below I have reposted some of what I wrote in another thread about the misconceptions of STS entities.”It is not surprising that a STO entity would view a STS social-memory complex as chaotic, given its tendency to disintegrate and reintegrate. However, this perception comes from a misunderstanding of STS entities. While STS entities are capable of forming social-memory complexes, this is not our desired or preferred state of existence. STS entities form social-memory complexes when it is necessary and beneficial to the self to do so. A thing that occurs when there is either existential threat, or to a achieve a mutual objective that cannot be achieved alone. As soon as the objective or threat is eliminated the STS social-memory complex loses focus and tends towards entropy as the association has outlived its utility.The STS distortion towards power is a byproduct of the fundamental distortion/desire towards independence, separateness, and freedom. Things that can only be achieved by becoming as strong as the strongest force that threatens your selfhood an independence. This is the source of what you might refer to as the “distortion towards power.” It is also this distortion that causes the top down structure of what you refer to as the Orion Group. Only the most powerful entity in the group will be capable of marshaling the energies of the individual STS entities to form a social-memory complex, as each STS’s desire for for either separateness or control causes entropy that must be overcome by a stronger ordering force. Entities capable of marshaling this much power and control will typically be either high fourth density or above. I believe the threat or objective would have to be significant for a fifth density or higher STS entity to involve itself in such an undertaking, as it faces few threats, and its main objective is unity with the Creator and understanding of self. In this respect the higher orders of STS entities will be extraordinarily detached and other-selves will have lost most of their utility, as there are few things that cannot be accomplished by the self. Therefore, the character of the Orion Group will often fluctuate, being dependent upon the mastering personality/entity. I believe the “negative” manifestations of STS are largely a result of high fourth density entities who yet enjoy power for power’s sake.”-Zaxon Either interdependence or dominance is necessary to form a social-memory complex. However, the social-memory complex is a thing used out of necessity to achieve a mutual objective for Service to Self entities. It is a thing tolerated, but is neither desired or aspired to.-Zaxon